So yesterday was a fairly busy day.
Firstly I had a hair appointment, which I was very excited about as I could actually choose the style (what I had been going for before or a bob cut). It is lovely to be able to have the option, usually I just have it styled to help grow it out so I opted for a bob cut. It’s still a little short in place but as soon as the hairdresser put in the fringe, it looked perfect and I am so happy with it. I also captured some photos to show you all.
Secondly, I completed my 3rd Race for Life with my friend Kate and her daughter Megan. To say I was nervous, was an understatement, I was petrified! My idea to train and prepare myself went out of the window so I was really unprepared. However, we managed to get round in 49 minutes (Megan in 35 mins) and 24 hours later, I’m still here. My legs are really aching though and I was so tired I had to have a nap. So here is a photo of us just before we started (there is a photo as we crossed the finish line but it is not glamorous)
Well, that’s all to update at the moment. I’m off to get my 5th assignment ready to send off (hopefully this evening)
So today Timehop had another reminder for me.
It was such a blow for me that day, my idea that morning was to see the oncologist who would tell me everything was going to plan and that my chemo would rid me of my cancer. However, as usual for me, it didn’t quite go that way. I was sat down, the doctor gave a huge sigh and said that this was the part of the job she hated. My cancer had spread and was, therefore, incurable. She promised me it could be managed and although she has since left my hospital, her promise has been kept. At the time, my only wish was to see my little girls first day at school and enjoy life more as I had no idea how long I would last (sorry a bit depressing)
But here I am 2 years later, with no further spread, after my chemo kicked the s**t out of it and reduced the mass on my pelvis, spine and hip to just a small amount on my pelvis and hip.
So I guess I’d better make some aims for the next 2 years!
- My sisters wedding and subsequent hen do’s (one of which I am allowed to plan)
- My little boy’s first day of school
- A big family holiday (we are more in the habit of weekends away then proper holidays, but this ends now)
- Carry on enjoying life (this will include wacky weekends away, meeting celebs and some other weird and wonderful things that crop up along the way)
So, to end I thought I’d share a photo from our first adventure of the year, Alton Towers (and Cbeebies Land).
Well, I’ve not got my week off to a great start. Have not been feeling very well for the past couple of days & after my routine blood test came back fine, it seems it is all down to exhaustion.
Starting to feel more myself now so hopefully tomorrow I’ll be back to normal (whatever that is).
Bloody typical when I’ve got a busy week ahead. I’ve had the nurse out this morning to take blood ready for treatment on Wednesday & had an appointment with my breast consultant. Got the day off tomorrow then it’s off to see the oncologist Wednesday morning and Herceptin & Perjeta in the afternoon. Thursday is a medicine review at the GP & Friday is my yearly mammogram. Saturday I’ll probably be collapsing in a heap & trying to do as little as possible.
On the bright side though, Evie picked me some beautiful daffodils from the garden
Can’t believe it’s been so long since I last posted an update.
So much has gone on since last time. My new drugs appear to be working and I am now showing some signs of the menopause (mainly hot flushes) and the cancer marker in my blood is reducing. I have had to give up my job due to being too tired (working as a cleaner probably wasn’t the best idea). Although I do still get tired, I am able to rest more and do some more things to help me relax, such as scrap-booking and some trips out.
This past weekend has also marked 2 years since my diagnosis!
Yes, you read that right 2 YEARS!!!!
I honestly never believed that I would still be here 2 years later and feeling quite well for it. Last week in the lead up it was tough, but I have tried my best to stay positive, thinking about how far I’ve come and how well I am considering all of this. I am still very much alive and kicking (cancer’s butt). You will also be happy to hear that I (well my hubby and mother in law) are still using the “C” card. The most significant one was at the weekend when my hubby had arranged a shopping trip with a personal shopper, I got a free makeover, my nails done and an arm massage for free. My mum in law and me had an amazing time, am already saving up to do it again!
Only real complaint I have at the moment is this cold weather we are having. I know, I sound like an old woman but I really do feel the cold and it really makes my joints ache, especially my hip. But every morning when I leave the house, I am reminded that spring is on it’s way with the lovely daffodils and hopefully some tulips soon.
Well that’s enough of my ramblings, I promise to keep you up to date more often.
Over the past week I have been feeling a little down, maybe it’s just the time of year, however after Boxing Day I have started to feel a lot better.
I am now looking forward to the new year and planning plenty of things to do with family and friends. At the start of 2014, I thought this was the year that things were going to happen i.e. I was going to build up my business, I wanted to do a lot of things with my family and all this was put on hold when I was diagnosed. Back then I felt so lost and had no idea what the future held for me. Nearly a year on, I’m still a little unsure but I’m going to get on regardless.
Although 2014 was pretty rubbish (my diagnosis has put a bit of a black cloud over things) there has been so many great things have happened too, such as
- Meeting the Backstreet Boys (Sorry I’m going to keep going on about that for some time still)
- reconnecting with old friends and made lots more
- completed the Race for Life and the Midnight Walk for Katharine House Hospice
- I’ve completed 2 modules towards my degree
- been on some lovely trips away with my family
- Raised lots of money for charity
- had a few interesting adventures
Today was kind of a day off the treatment as the machine was having a service so I thought I’d plan a catch up lunch with a friend and a few other bits and bobs.
To start the day off I thought I’d wear a new dress I’d been looking forward to wearing. All was going well until I looked in the window and saw I looked like Sinead O’Connor (I’ve got nothing against her but I don’t think the look suits me). That was a little upsetting, I just wish I had my long hair back. It doesn’t help either when you are feeling exhausted and poorly.
I dropped my children off at nursery and headed home to spend some time with my dog before heading into town to buy Lynda Bellingham’s new book and have lunch. When I met my friend, as usual it took us ages to look at the menu as we were too busy talking. I had my usual a nice healthy salad with a lemon meringue to balance it out (hehe). We had some brilliant conversations and giggles, most of it was the kind of “had to be there” to get it but I had a great time. It was nice to be able to forget everything I’m feeling at the moment and just let loose. The only problem was it never seems long enough.
After that it was back to it, sadly being a mum as well as a cancer patient means life never stops. You never have time to wallow in self-pity or sleep for hours on end. But I guess it has helped me to stay so positive, watching my two children (even though they can be little tinkers at times) makes me want to fight so I can carry on watching them for as long as I can. Nothing can brighten your day like your child giving you a cuddle or telling you they love you. Things have been difficult for both of them, my little girl especially, as they are both too young to understand what is happening to Mummy.
Well this evening my plan is to do a little bit of coursework, settle down with some chocolate and start my new book.
I had a discussion with a couple of the girls on the workshop yesterday about how being diagnosed is bittersweet.
On the one hand you are dealt with something you wouldn’t wish on even your worse enemy and on the other, it makes you take stock of your life and makes you want to make the most out of it.
If I had been told I would do even half the stuff I have done in the past 8 months, this time last year, I probably would have just laughed it off. However, since my diagnosis I have done so much,
- I met my favourite boyband
- I have made some incredible new friends and reconnected with others
- I shaved my hair off for charity
- I completed the Race for Life and even ran a little bit of it
- I have been able to manage running home, caring for my children, endured surgery, chemotherapy and the shock of having cancer and continued studying towards my degree
- I’ve held a Strawberry Tea for Breast Cancer Care
- This weekend I am going to be completing the Midnight Walk for Katharine House Hospice
- I went on a Look Good Feel Better workshop and to Hoar Cross Hall
- I went on my first study visit to Liverpool (something I was very nervous about doing)
- I am booked to go on another study visit to Brighton next month but this time I will be going for the whole weekend
- With my family I have been to Nottingham, Bath and London all in between my treatment
- and countless other things
But the best thing is, it’s only September so there are plenty other things I could do! If I’m honest, I have no idea what will happen before the end of the year but I’m excited to find out.
Like I said before, having cancer is bittersweet, it is only now that I am really enjoying life and having the guts to do all the things I want to. So my advise to all of you reading this is if there is something you want to do, just do it! Don’t be afraid, don’t think you are being selfish, just get on with it! The only person you are letting down is yourself and if like me, you’ll be excited about what it will lead to next.
So until next time, I’m off to plan another adventure x